Well, speak about breaks. It's been over 5 MONTHS since my last post. My apologies. But in fact, no one probably even reads this, so #sorryimnotsorry.
I looked up "break" in an online dictionary just a moment ago. If you scroll down through the definitions, you'll come across this:
17. Make a pause in (a journey)
Looking at all the definitions, this seemed to fit the most for what happened. When I started this blog, I guess you could say I really wanted to work on #77 on my bucket list (if you're new, see my about me!). I love writing, and I thoroughly enjoyed blogging. But then I started getting to a point where I was worried about what I was writing. Was it stupid? Did it really matter? All of these thoughts crossed my mind and then I went into a funk. A 5 month funk. Everyday I would think about things that I could blog about. I would get all hyped up about a new post, and then the negative Nancy in me would come out. And then I wouldn't write anything, hence no blog posts since Halloween.
I often thought, I want to write something that means something to someone. Inspired by Peyton Sawyer from One Tree Hill. See
video. "But I cant. And If I can't be great at it, I don't want to ruin it. It's too important to me." So that's what I've been feeling and that is what has created this 5 month stump.
If you've stuck around, thank you:-) If you're new, welcome! I'm back and with a new
direction strategy inspiration.
I started following a new blog recently. The writer of the blog is a personal acquaintance and her story is inspiring. She began her blog only a few weeks ago on the premise that it would be for herself. And that it wouldn't be perfect, because let's face it--nothing is!
So that got me motivated, and helped me reflect back to when I was making the bucket list...I put #77 on there, because I love writing. I like sharing my voice. And it is something that makes me happy:-) So this blog was an outlet for me to be creative and to do something that I enjoy doing, or that was the original idea at least. And I think when I went on "break" it was because I forgot that, and was worrying too much about what I maybe hoped it would be/do instead of what it was.
So here I am, back with a new
inspiration. And a new
challenge. To remember that each time I post, this is for me. And if in turn it inspires someone else, wonderful. But if it doesn't, well then I still enjoyed doing it, right?!
If you've stuck it out through this post, I thank you--it was a lengthy one. I'm happy to be back on the blogosphere and I look forward to more posts. It's time to get that conversation brewing!
Always love,
Becca
