5 month stump!

Well, speak about breaks.  It's been over 5 MONTHS since my last post. My apologies.  But in fact, no one probably even reads this, so #sorryimnotsorry.

I looked up "break" in an online dictionary just a moment ago.  If you scroll down through the definitions, you'll come across this:

17. Make a pause in (a journey)

Looking at all the definitions, this seemed to fit the most for what happened.  When I started this blog, I guess you could say I really wanted to work on #77 on my bucket list (if you're new, see my about me!).  I love writing, and I thoroughly enjoyed blogging.  But then I started getting to a point where I was worried about what I was writing.  Was it stupid? Did it really matter? All of these thoughts crossed my mind and then I went into a funk.  A 5 month funk.  Everyday I would think about things that I could blog about.  I would get all hyped up about a new post, and then the negative Nancy in me would come out.  And then I wouldn't write anything, hence no blog posts since Halloween. 

I often thought, I want to write something that means something to someone. Inspired by Peyton Sawyer from One Tree Hill. See video. "But I cant.  And If I can't be great at it, I don't want to ruin it.  It's too important to me."  So that's what I've been feeling and that is what has created this 5 month stump.

If you've stuck around, thank you:-) If you're new, welcome! I'm back and with a new direction strategy inspiration.

I started following a new blog recently.  The writer of the blog is a personal acquaintance and her story is inspiring.  She began her blog only a few weeks ago on the premise that it would be for herself.  And that it wouldn't be perfect, because let's face it--nothing is!

So that got me motivated, and helped me reflect back to when I was making the bucket list...I put #77 on there, because I love writing.  I like sharing my voice.  And it is something that makes me happy:-) So this blog was an outlet for me to be creative and to do something that I enjoy doing, or that was the original idea at least. And I think when I went on "break" it was because I forgot that, and was worrying too much about what I maybe hoped it would be/do instead of what it was.

So here I am, back with a new inspiration.  And a new challenge.  To remember that each time I post, this is for me.   And if in turn it inspires someone else, wonderful.  But if it doesn't, well then I still enjoyed doing it, right?! 

If you've stuck it out through this post, I thank you--it was a lengthy one.  I'm happy to be back on the blogosphere and I look forward to more posts.  It's time to get that conversation brewing!

Always love,
Becca